It’s been almost two months since I started this crazy project.  At first, I was scared because I knew I was going to be revealing aspects of myself, my life, my thinking, that were going to be controversial and maybe unpopular.

Initially, I shared the link with a few very close friends, but as I marched ahead and wrote more, I got more comfortable and expanded the “circle of love”.  Doctor-Conde.com has been visited more than 3,500 times by more than 900 people, which I find fascinating.  I have to confess that it strokes my ego a little but I shouldn’t let it be that.  It’s also a little like having a new girlfriend: I’ve been checking to see if people visit and comment pretty regularly and my heart seems to brighten when they do.

Within my circle of friends, I ended up inviting more than 50 people and I may still include some more as time goes on.  I gave updates to this group on a weekly basis and I know many check in regularly and others don’t and that’s ok.  I am sincerely not offended to know that people choose not to read or listen to the meditations.  Ultimately, I really am satisfied that my work is “out there” and accessible and people who know about it and don’t read may do it when they’re “ready”.

I have received so many nice messages of encouragement and appreciation, I am sincerely flattered.  Also, people have reached out to me via e-mail for advice and I have done my honest best to tell them things I consider relevant and appropriate.

So, this blog I view as art, as my expression from deep inside, my mind, my heart, my history.  But if along the way it helps someone see a light, resonate, identify and make their lives better, wow, that’s more than I could ever hope for.  I have also asked the universe to let this blog reach those who may not know about it and might benefit, so I am sure that has already happened.

Nobody has really come back to me to say they are offended or don’t like it, but as I might have suspected upfront given the nature of the material, some friends have taken some distance since I have revealed shocking truths about myself.  My choices, my lifestyle, my thoughts, are not universal, they are mine and those who choose distance are exercising their free will and I respect that completely.

The blog has given me incredible perspective on myself.  Being able to write, express, regardless of the outcome, allows me to be as authentic as I can be, naked, transparent.  So the friends who have read and stayed with me can now “see me” just like I am not just as I have presented myself in ordinary reality.

I will bow my head for a moment in thanks to all those who have taken the time to read me in detail and start conversations with me.  Some have used my thoughts as a sounding board for their own interpretations and discernments and given me feedback.  I feel our lives have been enhanced by the mutual exchange.

I never carried a diary and this is the closest I can come to it.  But I have also tried to make it relevant and artistic.  I definitely don’t want to post like I see in Facebook sometimes (Post 1: “I’m going to the bathroom”.  Post 2: “I went to the bathroom.”).  I very much have the awareness that I am writing to be read but I’m not necessarily writing for my readers. I am writing what’s inside me, and then I let go, I detach from the outcome.

In the end, I have shared the blog with 2 of my siblings who have probably read a bit.  I have not gotten much reaction other than an acknowledgement of my style.  Several people have commented about that which has been a great surprise since I’ve never been much of a writer.

So my dear readers, this is a great adventure and I am tremendously happy that I did it.  I will keep writing as relevant thoughts, topics and experiences come up.  I may write long or short depending on how I feel.  And please be assured that I have appreciated tremendously all the feedback and comments.

In closing, I also want to say that if any of you want to try writing and blogging, go for it.  It’s enormously therapeutic and liberating.  Be yourself and let go.

Many blessings of love and light.